Closer To The Heart

Today is my middle child’s birthday. All mothers, if they’re lucky, love their children equally, but each of them has different things that make them special. My middle is a wild spirit. He is all gangly legs, a big smile he is rarely without, he laughs and talks a million miles an hour and is is positively filled with mischief and love. Just seeing his face makes me smile.

This one is several years old – but it’s one of my favorites (from a trip to Disneyland – the train ride is the first thing we do every visit and he loves trains)

His name means ray of light because he came to us after some dark times. Like the boy, the pregnancy was easy, in fact the easiest of the three. His birth was stubborn, again, like the boy. And once they put him on my breast, once I felt the weight of him in my arms after all that work – it fell away. The work, the pain, the fear that something would go wrong – all of it passed from me as the warm weight of my son rested against my heart.

Where he is always.

So happy birthday to the boy who is my ray of light. You are my heart and I love you more than I can ever tell you.

This is his song. The one that I hear and instantly think of his smile.

6 comments to “Closer To The Heart”

  1. Pearl
    August 13th, 2010 at 10:41 am · Link

    Happy Birthday to your ray of light! Wish you all a wonderful day! Your post made me tear up!

  2. Anilu Magloire
    August 13th, 2010 at 10:47 am · Link

    Oy!! I’m all weepy now… Happy, happy day to him 🙂

  3. Christine
    August 13th, 2010 at 11:28 am · Link

    Today is my little guy’s birthday to. I missed him today b/c he he slept over at camp. So I didn’t get to say Happy Birthday this morning. So from one boy to another have a happy birthday.

  4. azteclady
    August 13th, 2010 at 2:30 pm · Link

    Happy b-day to him–and what a lovely tribute from his mom!

    Thank you for sharing this, Lauren.

  5. Nancy
    August 13th, 2010 at 10:12 pm · Link

    Awww! Happy birthday to your wee one! 😀

  6. Mary G
    August 14th, 2010 at 6:18 am · Link

    How sweet! Wait, you have a Leo child?
    Maybe you’ll need my mom’s phone number? LOL. Kidding – Leos rock!!